A mystic sun began to rise
inside
as darkness turned into immersion,
sinking back into the womb
of earth itself.
One small, sad light was
all it had
and this would have to see
it
through, and yet still further
out,
to will this time of gloom
away
that loomed as if an ever-presence
within the history of life
in time.
And yet it knew it must conceive
of life beyond the womb,
if ever it would really feel
alive,
and essential to the feel
of all reality.
Dark descent into the realm
of innocence taht came to
claim
its place within this world,
this form,
this ever-living storm of
chaos, streaming
into the world of living
matter,
was coming conscious even
then.
And its weight and mass,
in gross accumulation,
had no room left to move
or grow
within the soothing waters
of the womb of its containment.
It sought to rise, and yet
it fell,
endlessly into the depth
of life in form;
for gravity had taken hold
and it felt a strange sensation
then,
as muscles moved and flexed
for this time, when it moved
its limbs
its spine began to tingle
in a rush of energy.
Yet still this light could
not be seen
by eyes, nor mind, nor reasoning
– not yet,
so blindly it moved on into
the mass of the unknown that
seethes within extremities.
It could only flex for just
so long
but as it did, its power
grew
for its body and its spirit
knew
that it must stand
straight and free and strong
some day
if ever it would meet its
destiny.
And the presence of its soul
now came to know
the beginning of the feeling
of this flesh
that it had chosen to become;
heavy and yet somehow too,
more real and meaningful
than anything that it had
been before -
and so the learning had begun.
The darkness seemed so overwhelming
then,
as in descent, first feelings
of the flesh
became a sense of blockage
and of pain;
but it moved on - for now
its spirit knew
that only movement made it
real.
Its focused goal - the living
light
of all tomorrows.
It was thus the light became
more sure of its existence.
It struggled then, incessantly,
in bouts of strength and
weakness.
Wanting this, desiring that,
yet faced with more than
any one
could ever feel alone.
While somehow the warmth
of womb
still flowed through cords
of harmony,
as truly this one cord became
the need of severance and
separation;
and thus its sense of imminent
release
as more and more, it came
to know
it was returning to itself
somehow;
mysterious and free, but
not quite yet.
This cord, this cord, its
very life,
the only life it knew,
began to pull and bind and
stop
the very quest for life that
came about,
while still it sought its
source of strength
within the womb that until
now
was all that it had known,
or ever
truly could be known
of the creativity of life
itself.
And so descent - forcing now
and straining
just to claim its right to
its existence.
It crowned, and oh, that
first experience
of air and light upon its
head, its brow
– another living moment of
transition.
Yet still somehow, it knew
it must go on,
for the peak of life is individuality
of form
and this must issue through
and through
each particle that was its
form of life
Then came the first experience
of cold,
for the feel of air just
differed so
from the warmth of safe security
of the containment in the
warmth
of womb and moisture.
Unconsciously, its quest was
set
in realms of truth, that
some may know
as spirit or of magic or
of soul.
Invisible, this quest of
unity
that needs no more to truly
be
than just a human consciousness
to set it free upon the winds
of time itself;
and more itself with every
moment
that feels itself within
infinity in flesh and form
And then a mighty push for
life
(did it come from deep
inside itself
or from some living other?),
and it all became amazing
form,
yet it was dazed within a
world
that seemed the essence of
pure light.
Then the catch, for suddenly
the cord was quickly severed,
and all that it had known
became
an unknown quest for its
first breath
of freedom and of air,
that never had been offered
it before
in such an unprotected form.
Just then, instead of giving
out
it found the will to take
it in -
this fire of the fuel of
life within
a world of breath that would
sustain
the very essence of the form
that it had come to be,
neither masculine or feminine,
not yet, for all it seemed
to know
yet still, was as a particle
that spun
itself within a greater whole.
Slowly then, with nurturance
unasked,
it learned of light and all
the power
that sight itself could come
to be.
And its quest became to bring
this light
of all eternity and life
further still into its mortal
form.
And from this, a mystic sun
became the norm of indivisibility
that lives beyond the fear
of mere survival...
? Michaelette ?
3/22/2001
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L. Romano
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