The walls are falling down
again;
reddish brown, the color
of dried blood.
Beneath the scabs, a deeper
scar was
found, puckered in its patterning
- revealing
the tip of all that still
remained unseen.
Trembling, a gentle touch,
and then
another round of great withdrawal.
Desperately, he sought her
out,
amid the many superstitions;
never knowing just how black
this art of his might really
be.
Cautiously and carefully,
he
felt his way along, praying
nothing
would go wrong this time;
knowing
that a misstep could mean
death
of everything he held most
sacred,
there within his walls.
Connection made, he paced
himself;
diffidently easing out each
word.
And still, he could not quite
believe
the pain and misery he heard
as
she responded honestly to
him.
How cruelly singular she
had become.
Every time he thought he'd
won, another
loss would take away each
gain.
He felt the threads of great
insanity,
even as they reached so deep
into
his brain.
Drugged and half insane already;
realizing nothing much had
really
changed at all, he stalled
the tremor
threatening to shatter what
he held
to be the truth. He stretched
and
yawned and slowly moved -
ah yes,
reality was surely there
with him.
A dream, a dream - it must
have
been no more than just a
dream!
...then why this scarring
tissue with
its ugly patterning, growing
all too
real within an etching feel
of misery?
Dull and hazy, memories began
their beckoning. Locked so
deep
inside - was that a quiet
rumbling
of distant voices that he
seemed
to hear just then? And there,
just
out the corner of his eye
- ah no,
he knew it wasn't really
her at all.
Just endless patterns, growing
in
the ever-tumbling of these,
his many walls...
? Michaelette ?
12/29/2001
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