Tried Too Hard

I tried so hard not to love you.
Your departure held a pain of imminence.
Essential, that one moment
when you finally turned to leave.

And then... I tried so hard not to love you.
Loving you would only bring more pain.
Your words, your scent - a detriment -
the breaking pain of hearts.

I tried so hard not to love you.
We built the walls and then defended,
each their own extreme.
The feel of loss refused to be redeemed.

Time stretched as if suspended.
The fences were unmended.
The grass was growing tall and swayed
within a vagrant wind.

We had it all for just a little while.
Pure memory still brings a sad, sweet smile.
I tried too hard not to love you,
and then I had to simply let that go...

? Michaelette ?

6/19/2002
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