Just Because

For so long now
I've been preparing myself
for her death
yet still I know
that when it happens
I will be torn apart

For I cannot imagine life
without her
She's always been there
I don't want her to go…

The child inside of me
cries out in agony
at just the thought
of the loss of someone
so essential to my being

'cause I wouldn't be
if it weren't for her
so how can I be
when she's gone?

I attempt to console myself
for I have lived on my own
for such a long time now
even raised two children of my own

but this is somehow different
though I can't quite figure why
perhaps it's just because
she is my mom . . .

?Michaelette?

10/18/99
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