I.
As civil
war tears a nation apart
with each
blow struck, we rend her heart
with battle
and strife and mutilation
forgetting
together, we form a nation
One lone
man, wounded, refused to continue
upon his
shoulders lay the task of renewal
refusing
to live his life as a cripple
this one
man chose to cause a ripple
it moved
up in a spiral, round and about
till all
thoughts of life in this world had gone out
and death
was the only path left to follow
willingly,
gladly, this death he'd allow
and in this
pain he was made to feel
to lie
in anguish while senses reeled
there in
the distant darkness touched
while arms
around his body clutched
as ghostly
as mirage it came
as simple
as a candle flame
illumining
a darkened space
giving
truth to nameless face
a movement
sparked by that small light
a glimmer
of hope amid senseless fight
then he
perched on mare in glorious flight
his arms
spread wide, he dared their might
a resounding
NO he sent soaring in sight
of meager
minds and cruel emotion
in wonder
and glory he sailed with devotion
waking
spirit in all who'd comprehend
who could
no longer live, pretend
then he
slipped into unconsciousness
a world
of never ending bliss
while within
his soul awakened
to Eden,
where he would be taken
with a dream
to follow, a soul to seek
the might
of nature to keep him meek
He came
upon the red man there
and found
his fear the barrier
Looking
on these chosen people
he saw
the love of families, simple
in wilderness
they made their home
on pristine
plain where the wild roamed
they lived
in peace upon the land
where structures
of steel now imposingly stand
If only
all could hear Her call
and rise
as mountains to view the all
man but
a speck on a mightier face
composed
of her body, alive by her grace
the higher
the spiral as we ascend
through
inner distance, beginning to end
from valley
low to snowy peak
up and
down, around we seek
the source,
the power, the creative hand
but few
of us knowing, wherever we stand
we're always
there, in the palm of her hand
From ashes,
from earth, from particles of dust
with a
love much deeper and higher than lust
a body
is formed, a soul is born
the earth
becomes conscious of self as form
Giving thought
to what we portray
brings
great change to endless days
of life
on earth, of habit in form
our souls
will expand, our hearts will warm
to brothers
and sisters, sharing this life
to flowers,
to animals, to husband, to wife
A glow of
kindness, a gentle touch
a caring
hug, can do so much
to heal
the hurts causing segregation
to mend
the difference of separation
The joining
of the opposites
the mending
of the difference
the common
bond, a silken thread
woven stronger
with each heart that bled
at sight
and touch of gods forlorn
forgotten
by man; a lone heart reborn
can open
channels of amazing grace
to bind
disparity in our race
One race,
one nation, one body, one soul
one voice,
one heart, from pole to pole
joined
with every entity
they call
to us to feel, to be
at one with
life, eternity's motion
life for
the living, the source of creation
freely
given and freely shared
beyond
possession, a few have dared
to live
their lives a different way
and with
the dawn of each new day
they offer
thanks within their being
for the
wonder of this way of seeing
all in one
and one in all
a higher
voice within them calls
to each
and every man of worth
each creature
and process born of this earth
to hearken
to the voice divine
the voice
of truth within their own mind
combining
the best of the old and the new
solving
the mystery with one given clue
as preview
of forgotten days
another reason to turn the page
to days
of yore, to simple things
wisdom
born of old it brings
of shaman,
wizard and timeless sage
to loosen
the shackles of spirit's cage
where soul
and heart suffer, their freedom barred
where possessions
and power so often mar
the growth
of many precious seeds
to follow
a path that only leads
to decay
and destruction, the darkness of ages
while within
their small hearts, the war still rages
tearing
asunder the worthy, the right
to possess
all the things within their sight
At death
they truly disappear
if in life,
their vision never clears
as they
horde material vanity
beyond
all though of sanity
never seeking
for humanity
for the
fullness of their destiny
the strength
of their integrity
Are we
worthy…?
Are we worthy
of the childlike trust
will we
find our way as we know we must
or will
we let the other strive
toward
the wealth of sacred prize
procrastinating
till life is done
And if
all are other, for God's sake, who's the one…?
that will
spread the message to young and old:
Within
your own heart you'll find the gold
more precious
than any possession held
when greed
and selfishness are finally quelled
it's then
our vision can freely expand
inclusive
of all - sun, sea, sky and land
These aspects
to our unity
move in
spirals endlessly
hoping for
a human touch
conscious,
they can offer much
of beauty,
harmony, spacious glory
seeking
our lips to tell the story
of the building
of the universe
from moving
particles, alive from the first
Within
yourself, yet out of space
to a place
of the most amazing grace
of rhyme
and rhythm, a swirling spiral
in the
center of which there is nothing that's final
myriad
vortices, blending, dividing
to again
become one, with another uniting
Where mystic
and poet, endowed with form
are taken
beyond the daily norm
to play
with the angels, converse with the gods
to bask
in sweet light, beyond the beyonds
yet to return
to mere mortal proportion
to share
the gifts, to brew the potion
bringing
more than culture to starving souls
teasing
spirit from matter, as sages of old
Cosmic thoughts
of how it all started
entice,
reveal and when departed
leaving
eternity in their wake
fully realizing
what's at stake
entrusted
to our puny hands
the future
of the planet stands.
Will we
stop these endless repetitions
to remember together, we form a nation?
II.
In remotest
outpost, a friend is found
a howl
in the night his only sound
a furry
creature with two white paws
who lives
by only nature's laws
yet chooses
to become my friend
to help
the wounds of distance mend
and days
and endless days I spent
earning
the trust of this innocent
I named
him Two Socks, he seemed to respond
independence
was our common bond
and I learned
more from his deep eyes
than astronomers
learn by watching the skies
his wisdom
was of instinct born
he lived
alone yet not forlorn
while love
for love his sharing sparked
his lone
commingling marked my heart
his courage
urged my own to be
to truly
relate, one must be free
free to
go, but free, too, to come home
leaving's
but half of the urge to roam
in coming
and going, no matter how far
the home
of the heart burns bright as a star
From whence
comes this necessity…?
seldom
taken seriously
mysteriously
haunting the open mind
to travel
unknown paths to find
a community
of kindred kind
of scope,
of purpose, mutualities bind
Finding
the truth is a sacred task
truth lying
behind the social mask
behind our
lost humanity
above the
mere banality
unheard
through days of ceaseless pain
yet always
there, they never wane
They're
back, you know, those souls of the ages
to partake
again of this play set on stages
they bring
the wealth of eternity
to every
nationality
waiting
always patiently
for entrance
through humanity
At night
at times when veil is thin
they find
dreams a way of getting in
to fill
our hearts with unearthly awe
will we
wake as if we never saw
their splendid
beauty, heavenly power
the wisdom
of ages in a wild flower…?
The gentle
flow of wind blown grass
inspires
more wonder than wealth amassed
To worship
the simple, the secret is whispered
and caught
by the breeze, is gently dispersed
in warm
and caring, loving touch
Within
our hearts there dwells so much
eternal
moments of unstained truth
return
to us as in our youth
when with
open heart we'd always find
the essence
of every other kind
the sameness
that joins us deep down under
restoring
at once what's been split asunder
to put it
together, to make it complete
amid darkened
souls who ever compete
for the
powers born of innocence
never contained
in their lesser sense
They want
to have and hold and smother
the fire
that burns within the other
instead
of feeding that delicate flame
to them, as possession, it's all the same
They'll
never know the unearthly joy
that comes
to those who would employ
that compassionate
feeling that will engender
the knowing of others in all their splendor
the silent
touch of empathy
inclined
to deepest sympathy
empowers
us as nothing can
across
the moat, a bridge will span
and a wilder,
wider, spectacular view
a brand
new vision of the old and the new
will on
our flight to other realms
arch o'er
the abyss that overwhelms
A bridge
made stronger with each passing step
that others
may follow 'cross the chasm we leapt
in safety
and strength and sureness of purpose
the path
ever widens, our courage the buttress
Or is it
that the chasm's depths
as fear
upon fear is formed into steps
grows smaller
as we rise above
with hand
upon hand, united in love
as we move
through our darkened veil
on silver
wings we dare to sail
to alternate
realities
where energies
are verities
o'er fields
of bending wind-swept grass
touching
the spirit of each life passed
to lands
of inspiration bound
where soul
and body as one are found
where worlds
fly by in gusts of air
possibilities,
the fates' affair
and best
of all, the truth is known
we really
belong, we're a seed that's been sown
and nurtured
and cared for and gently encouraged
to live,
love and grow, so at last we emerge
into starlight
and moon beams and angel dust
with our
feet planted firmly upon the earth's crust
where opened
heart can freely expand
in brotherhood,
when war is banned
and hands
are joined in jubilation
to celebrate
unity in our nation
III.
When all
alone in wilderness
no human
voice to soothe distress
a small
red journal served sublimation
became
my means of communication
and in my
loneliness I found
the journal's
comfort midst silent sound
in this
journal I wrote my private thoughts
recording
what the wilderness taught
of love,
of life, of meaning's quest
never to
cease to search for rest
This communion
with my soul would send me
to inner
depths beyond perceiving
of mortal
eyes or ears or senses
beyond
the world of mere pretenses
Alone, I
touched the subtle realms
where gentle
motion overwhelms
at last
I saw the truth of living
in this
wilderness, so freely giving
We, too,
have before us a new frontier
Will courage
fail to endless fear
or will
we gladly risk the loss
of pain
and suffering on the cross
of the paradox
that endows all life
with ceaseless,
sterile, straining strife?
The question
was never "To be, or not"
but HOW
will we be when offered the lot
of life's
ever changing, continuous options
we alone
are creators of all our concoctions
If to each
his own, what goes to the other
when we
are her own, all born of one mother
Are we worthy?
Can we
see beyond our gluttonous greed?
Must we
continue to make the earth bleed
for our
great avarice, cupidity?
Are we
seeped in such stupidity
to think
that all should bow and bend
to one
as lowly as a man
with ego
swelled and unearned pride
the wise
among us can only sigh
and continue
quietly through endless days
to give
examples of worthier ways
to stand in stillness mid riotous throng
bringing
peace while standing strong
unnoticed
by the multitude
untainted
by collective mood
a quiet
circle of serenity
to offer
to eternity
and eternity listens…
and who
upon this earth can say
that they
have found a better way
of easing
strife, healing wounds so deep
as the
soul heals the body while we sleep
while in
and through this mortal space
the angels
send us wisdom, grace
potential
possibilities
amidst
our incongruities
The inner
eye will comprehend
the service
given without end
as shamans
heal, asking no pay
they live
their life in a different way
nourished
by their nourishing
touching
the heart, ever flourishing
knowing
the giving is grander by far
receiving
the light of a distant star
finding
pain is sweet when born upon
compassion
joined to everyone
when the
mob becomes the multitude
feasting
on such spiritual food
This circle
of serenity
midst suffering
humanity
they give
to all that will receive
the trick,
the power, is to believe
to let the
faith that dormant lay
swell inside,
the soul pervade
when each
culture, each denomination
remembers
- together we form a nation
IV.
A holy
man named Kicking Bird
wise beyond
the mass, the herd
contained
compassion within his heart
enough
to use his healing art
to mend
the rift 'tween white and red
and teach
that each on their merit will stand
fighting
all others' generalization
as I looked
in his eyes dawned the realization
that color
and culture and religious vocation
only stand
in the way of communication
no matter
the background, the language, the race
we are
all one people, bound in this grace
that brings
together every living creature
from lowly
sinner to grandiose preacher
equalizing
variations, allowing dignity
no one
can claim divinity, when all are seen in honesty
I was a
stranger in this awesome land
he trusted
me, asking only to understand
A bond
was formed, a deep love blossomed
as we came
to see the other's custom
Among his
people, my wife I found
under spacious
sky, our marriage was bound
we'd love
each other long as life allowed
no paper,
no law, could match our vow
She was
white yet she had been befriended
by the
Sioux when her family's lives were ended
by a different
tribe, a savage line
Just as
whites find savages among their kind
the reds
had the Pawnee to suffer
the Sioux
consoled, sharing all they could offer
More than
friends, they were family
till against
all forms of sanity
white troops
invaded this cherished place
this home
we'd made in open space
All I wanted
was to live in peace with my new family found
I would
not rend the fabric knit on their sacred ground
to protect
my new life, I tried to reclaim
my journal
of progress pursued since I came
knowing
the army would ne'er comprehend
the choices
I'd made that had led me to blend
white man
with red man, to live as their brother
I knew
in my heart I was not like the others
surprised,
as I hastened to cover my tracks
I found
that there was no turning back
I was captured,
imprisoned, beaten, abused
by my "own
kind" of people who only accused
My own
called me traitor, would hang me for treason
their lust
for power the only reason
and worst
of all, as they led me away
my friend,
Two Socks, could not stay away
as he followed
along, followed me as his friend,
they shot
him down for sport and then
so clearly
in his end I saw
the treachery
of white man's law
that satisfies
the rich and greedy
and never
leads to their perceiving
the right,
the just, the honest, the meek
they never
searched their souls to seek
the way
all must in the end mature
beyond
the herd, their soul ensure
to reach
higher levels of integrity
the breadth
of true prosperity
that finds
pure joy in ecstasy
beyond
the two polarities
of black
and white or day and night
the middle
way of calm insight
As much
as modern men deny
and never
stop to question why
the truth
of us was built upon
the blood
of many an innocent one
How do
men convince themselves
they have
the right to murder wolves?
If integrity
we would forsake
if unknowing,
uncaring we'd let our life take
that turn
for the worse, the easy out
what would
life's meaning be all about?
As I sat
in chains, in cold iron bound
all hope
had fled, when I heard the sound
of horses'
hooves and Indian cries
and lo
and behold, I saw on the rise
my friends,
my new family, coming to free me
with the
government guns that I had shared freely
A time
of victory, of justice this day
before
white men took their home away
I never
dreamt I would see a day
when I
would hope and feel and pray
for the
death of patriotic comrades
at the
hands of roaming Indian nomads
yet red and white had synthesized
within
my soul, were equalized
My captors
paid for their injustice
the Sioux
became their nemesis
The joy
I felt when the tribe was sighted
the love
as we were reunited
under sacred
sky, the Indian's dome
but this
could no longer be my home…
I could
never let these people suffer
after all
they'd given and shared and offered
my presence
among them would surely bring
the wrath
of white hunters, more suffering
As vulture's
claws reach for its prey
I would
be hunted through endless days
because
I'd betrayed authority's dictum
unable
to believe in the white man's system
And the
scene as I left I will always remember
my friend
on his mount, his voice rose in crescendo
These were
the words
he cried
over and over:
"I am your
friend. I will always be your friend!"
rang through
the canyon, with chill shiver descended
down my
spine, to the base
to the
deepest place
as it surged
through my being
blind with
tears of unseeing
my home
left behind
knowing
not what I'd find
but leave
I must
these friends
I trust
to journey
long to heights untraveled
as the
meaning to my life unraveled
To follow
the spirit wherever it goes
cross rivers,
up mountains, through deepest snows
is a quest
of the heart and the mind and the soul
while amongst
the thorns, a rose will grow.
The path
we tread leads higher still
we climb
as if against all will
yet never
far enough to rend
to leave
humanity behind
And higher
up the mountain tread
a few of
us have gone ahead
willingly,
we take this chance
to find
that place where wolves still dance…
? Michaelette ?
Copyright©
1998 Michaelette L. Romano
All rights
reserved
Take
Me Home...